I'm here to write. Not to "fuck shit up."

Everything I have written so far has been cleared by group owners.

For example, the Coalition will barely let me move, let alone write. ;)

People change. We get better as we get older. I'm not 16 anymore. I don't even remember why I was banned in the first place and from what I gather, no one else does either. Will the Xilenophobia ever end? Anything written by me to "fuck things up" could easily be deleted at the touch of a button, so what is everyone so afraid of? I've been completely written out of the history of TRF. It's not hard to do.

And just for the record, I can't fucking stand Chadd.

People change. We get better as we get older.

People aren't wine. I'd much rather have met Adolf Hitler at age five, versus age thrity five.

If you've forgotton why you were banned, then I'd wager tha no lesson was learned as, in large part, the collective community still remembers why you were banned, over and over again. "I dunno why I'm in prison," said the convict. "I don't remember what I did. Can I leave now?"

Will Xilenophobia ever fade? No. Nor should it. Examples like you and Chadd stand as testiment, as perfect examples of how to "fuck shit up" at TRF. Will people ever forget Satan? Hitler? Bin Laden?

Give it time, Xilen. Maybe things really have changed, but from where I'm sitting they sure as hell look about the same as they did.

Respect is earned, not given and you're working from a deficit.

I don't desire respect, or require it. I'm attempting to reactive a character that I thoroughly enjoyed playing. I hope that in time I can and will prove myself but I haven't been given an opportunity yet.

I appreciate any feedback people can and will give based on my past and I actually look forward to healing the wounds that I have inflicted. Since I have been here, I have done nothing but because I want to reactivate a character, everyone is up in arms.

Let's ALL just give it time.

To have permission to play a higher rank Forcer is based entirely on respect by the community. Respect of the skill and ability of that roleplayer to effectively play that role.

And just the fact you said you don't care for respect alone proves you don't deserve to start at anything but bottom rung.

I don't understand why you even have voice to give an argument in your defense. Just like Chadd, when he was discovered in his return attempt, you should have been silenced and gotten rid of.

What Xilen should have done...


Not joined any existing faction. Not created any characters that depend on his previous exploits here. Not requested Force ranks. Not have gone anywhere near a starship or shipyard. Not conducted a single planetary take-over thread.

What Xilen should have done...

Stayed under the radar. Wrote stories that made the community stop and ask, "Who is this new person writing these tales I so enjoy reading?". Not posted OOCly, ever!

And this is just a starter.

I started that. I was making posts under the radar when I first brought Julius onto the center stage.

Then someone exposed me after my first OOC post.

Anyway, I am not going to argue in my defense. Gue has a point. Everyone here does, and after speaking to Beff on AIM, he has several points. I made a statement about Chadd being a "Hot mess that does nothing but dedicate his time to destroying plots that people have taken years to build" and Beff simply said "Replace Chadd with Xilen."

I thought about that and everyone here is right.

I always get my facts mixed up about Chadd/Xilen.

Chadd deleted a bunch of storyline posts, and Xilen was just a crappy writer, correct?

Lol.

Xilen used to like to meddle in storylines and intentionally fuck them up, I gather.

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