Passion. It lies in all of us. Sleeping... waiting... And though unwanted... unbidden... it will stir... open its jaws, and howl. It speaks to us... guides us... Passion rules us all. And we obey. What other choice do we have?
Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love... the clarity of hatred... and the ecstasy of grief.
It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion, maybe we'd know some kind of peace. But we would be hollow. Empty rooms, shuttered and dank... Without passion, we'd be truly dead.
She watched them sleep.
So peaceful and innocent, laying on the bed in the quarters on the Greyhawk, Vessana would not tear her blood shot eyes from them. They were with her again, her son and daughters. The eldest, Sorsha - named after her dearest friend that died in the attack on the Ginalo Mansion on Ut - she was the first of the triplets to be born of the once Hapan Queen mother. Minutes later had come her second daughter, Yana, identical to Sorsha in every way.
Dakarius, her son, had been the most difficult to deliver. Even after the girls had been borne, he would not come for many hours. He had been frail from the moment he had been born, smaller than his sisters, pale and sickly. There had been numerous occasions in the time Lupercus would allow her to see them that she had been certain he would not make it through the night. Yet looking at him now, at the three of her children, she could hardly believe it was the same little boy.
His hair was light, golden, like his sisters and his mothers - though Vessana's was hidden beneath the dyes that had darken her hair. But unlike his sisters who possessed their mother's crystal blue eyes, Dakarius was definitely his father's son. With a strong, square jaw line, and ebony dark eyes that could pierce through your soul with a glance, the resemblance to Dakkon was uncanny, even at such a young age.
Two years old now, almost three, her children were Heir's to the throne of Hapes. So much had happened since the assault on Ut, the Cluster had fallen into ruin as had most of the Galaxy. War, plagues, if one did not kill you the other would. Hundreds of thousand of Happens - of her people - had died in the ensuing battles, yet nothing seemed to matter now that she was reunited with her children.
Nothing, but the loss of another man she had come to care for.
Ren Janggar's death had left a whole in her heart once again. A few weeks had passed since he had fallen at the hands of Lupercus, and still her despair had not lifted. Her girls did not seem to notice, but Dakarius did. He would not leave his mother's side when he was awake, always taking her hand in his or clutching tightly to her leg. He knew his mother was grieving.
The chime to the quarters sounded softly and, with a last look to her sleeping babes, Vessana stepped out into the narrow corridor of the freighter. " Yes, what is it Leinani?"
Leinani, the pilot in the Hapan Navy that Lupercus had imprisoned and degraded over the last year, had been the one responsible for the care of the triplets. Both woman had escaped Averam, and though they would never be close, Vessana was grateful for her company.
" You wanted to know when we were almost ready to drop out of Hyperspace, Highness." The pilot said quietly.
" I've asked you not to call me that," Vessana sighed as she made her way through the corridor to the cockpit. " I'm no longer the Queen Mother, haven't been for a long time now."
Leinani followed a few steps behind her and slid past her into the pilot's seat. " You are still my Queen, Highness, and the Queen to many others within the Cluster. When it is made known that you are still alive, as many of us had hoped..." Her voice trailed off when she saw the disapproving look on Vessana's face.
The former Queen Mother sighed yet again and sat next to the pilot in the co-pilot's chair. " There is no place for me in the Monarchy, even if I wanted the job." She reached beneath the chair and retrieved a small wooden box. " The Crowned Prince has married another, she is the Queen now and I will bow to her like any other Citizen of the Cluster."
The lid to the box swung open with a faint squeaking of the hinge as Vessana reached inside. Her fingers wrapped around a hypo spray and a vial that was filled with a misty orange liquid. Attaching the vial to the hypo spray, she pressed it against the skin on the inside of her arm and injected the specially refined form of Spice into her blood stream.
Leinani frowned, watching Vessana drop the hypo spray into the box again and slump back into the chair, but said nothing. The minutes passed in silence until the computer alerted them to the reversion back to normal space. " Reverting in 5 - 4 - 3 - 2 - 1-" The pilot pulled back on the level, dropping the Greyhawk out of Hyperspace. " Reversion complete."
Vessana closed her eyes, pinching at the bridge of her nose. Usually the Spice helped her relax, forget the emptiness she felt despite having her children back, but it did not seem to be helping this time. Her chest heaved with another sigh and she reluctantly opened her eyes to the planet the loomed in front of them.
" Welcome home, Highness."
An ice cold fist clutched at her heart as the freighter broke through the atmosphere. " Ut..."
Passion is the source of our finest moments. The joy of love... the clarity of hatred... and the ecstasy of grief.
It hurts sometimes more than we can bear. If we could live without passion, maybe we'd know some kind of peace. But we would be hollow. Empty rooms, shuttered and dank... Without passion, we'd be truly dead.
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She watched them sleep.
So peaceful and innocent, laying on the bed in the quarters on the Greyhawk, Vessana would not tear her blood shot eyes from them. They were with her again, her son and daughters. The eldest, Sorsha - named after her dearest friend that died in the attack on the Ginalo Mansion on Ut - she was the first of the triplets to be born of the once Hapan Queen mother. Minutes later had come her second daughter, Yana, identical to Sorsha in every way.
Dakarius, her son, had been the most difficult to deliver. Even after the girls had been borne, he would not come for many hours. He had been frail from the moment he had been born, smaller than his sisters, pale and sickly. There had been numerous occasions in the time Lupercus would allow her to see them that she had been certain he would not make it through the night. Yet looking at him now, at the three of her children, she could hardly believe it was the same little boy.
His hair was light, golden, like his sisters and his mothers - though Vessana's was hidden beneath the dyes that had darken her hair. But unlike his sisters who possessed their mother's crystal blue eyes, Dakarius was definitely his father's son. With a strong, square jaw line, and ebony dark eyes that could pierce through your soul with a glance, the resemblance to Dakkon was uncanny, even at such a young age.
Two years old now, almost three, her children were Heir's to the throne of Hapes. So much had happened since the assault on Ut, the Cluster had fallen into ruin as had most of the Galaxy. War, plagues, if one did not kill you the other would. Hundreds of thousand of Happens - of her people - had died in the ensuing battles, yet nothing seemed to matter now that she was reunited with her children.
Nothing, but the loss of another man she had come to care for.
Ren Janggar's death had left a whole in her heart once again. A few weeks had passed since he had fallen at the hands of Lupercus, and still her despair had not lifted. Her girls did not seem to notice, but Dakarius did. He would not leave his mother's side when he was awake, always taking her hand in his or clutching tightly to her leg. He knew his mother was grieving.
The chime to the quarters sounded softly and, with a last look to her sleeping babes, Vessana stepped out into the narrow corridor of the freighter. " Yes, what is it Leinani?"
Leinani, the pilot in the Hapan Navy that Lupercus had imprisoned and degraded over the last year, had been the one responsible for the care of the triplets. Both woman had escaped Averam, and though they would never be close, Vessana was grateful for her company.
" You wanted to know when we were almost ready to drop out of Hyperspace, Highness." The pilot said quietly.
" I've asked you not to call me that," Vessana sighed as she made her way through the corridor to the cockpit. " I'm no longer the Queen Mother, haven't been for a long time now."
Leinani followed a few steps behind her and slid past her into the pilot's seat. " You are still my Queen, Highness, and the Queen to many others within the Cluster. When it is made known that you are still alive, as many of us had hoped..." Her voice trailed off when she saw the disapproving look on Vessana's face.
The former Queen Mother sighed yet again and sat next to the pilot in the co-pilot's chair. " There is no place for me in the Monarchy, even if I wanted the job." She reached beneath the chair and retrieved a small wooden box. " The Crowned Prince has married another, she is the Queen now and I will bow to her like any other Citizen of the Cluster."
The lid to the box swung open with a faint squeaking of the hinge as Vessana reached inside. Her fingers wrapped around a hypo spray and a vial that was filled with a misty orange liquid. Attaching the vial to the hypo spray, she pressed it against the skin on the inside of her arm and injected the specially refined form of Spice into her blood stream.
Leinani frowned, watching Vessana drop the hypo spray into the box again and slump back into the chair, but said nothing. The minutes passed in silence until the computer alerted them to the reversion back to normal space. " Reverting in 5 - 4 - 3 - 2 - 1-" The pilot pulled back on the level, dropping the Greyhawk out of Hyperspace. " Reversion complete."
Vessana closed her eyes, pinching at the bridge of her nose. Usually the Spice helped her relax, forget the emptiness she felt despite having her children back, but it did not seem to be helping this time. Her chest heaved with another sigh and she reluctantly opened her eyes to the planet the loomed in front of them.
" Welcome home, Highness."
An ice cold fist clutched at her heart as the freighter broke through the atmosphere. " Ut..."