It was a three day journey through hyperspace from Katarr to Ilum. Skygge spent these days in meditation, focusing on drawing the healing currents of the Force that swirled around her into her body. Her injuries were bad, but not such that she would be permanently disabled. She still couldn’t raise her left arm, but the actual wounds were healing nicely.
It was in these three days that she felt more closely connected with the Force than ever before, and she used the connection to contemplate on the true nature of the Force. She felt adrift in a vast sea of blue and red – light, but not light. It was liquid, or something like it, but it was glowing. It swirled and flowed around her. Blue and red, red and blue.
But they did not mix. Whenever red and blue drifted together, they repelled one another. On the few occasions the red and blue light collided, a black spot was created, a hole that swallowed both red and blue, leaving only emptiness behind. Skygge observed all this with wonder.
Perhaps she had been wrong. Perhaps her dead mentors, the ones who had written the books on which she had based her theories and her teachings – perhaps they were wrong as well. Perhaps there was not only one Force. Perhaps there were two. Or perhaps there was really one Force, but it was separated into two mutually exclusive sides; an objective standard of light and dark.
Perhaps.
But that was the big question, and it was not one that she was prepared to answer, for when she looked into herself, she was confronted with reality. When she looked into herself, she saw the deepest, darkest black imaginable. It was emptiness. The more she healed, though, the more that black seemed to be tinted with the tiniest bit of blue.
Perhaps.
Perhaps Dolash could answer the question. She could not.
Dolash.
Master Dolash, as she knew him before he had retreated to Ilum for quiet contemplation, before she had departed the Jedi Temple for the journey that had brought her to this point, where the great question was laid at her feet. As she healed, she remembered . . .
A mission. A real mission, with a real Master.
Myneniel could barely contain her excitement. It had been over a year since she had left the Temple, even as an errand runner, and even longer since she had participated in an actual mission. Her status as a Masterless Padawan made her something of an oddity; she didn’t fit in anywhere. Had her Master died, it would have been different. As a Padawan whose Master had abandoned her, though . . .
Myneniel had never forgiven Master Horn for disappearing and leaving her Masterless. She’d been stuck at the Temple for so long, learning with the Younglings, and she was tired of it. She wanted to do something, to have some input, to make an impact on the galaxy. But without a Master, she could not advance, and until she got a new Master, she was stuck here.
But now Master Dolash had taken notice of her and asked her to accompany him and his pseudo-apprentice, Marek Zolar. It was an honor to train with one as accomplished as the Jedi Knight, and an honor Mynenial did not take lightly. She quickly packed her kit – not much, but all she had. Two spare sets of robes, her mother’s rancor tooth (for luck, of course, though she didn’t tell Leia that), and her lightsaber. She stared at the lengthened hilt for some time – a dual-phase blade, emerald and amethyst gems providing the color, a diamond to focus the energy. A well-constructed weapon. She had built it under Master Horn’s tutelage, and now as she stared at it, she recalled her former Master. Mynenial still felt fondness for him, but now that slight emotion was drowned out by the roaring of anger.
He had abandoned her, just as the Jedi were slowly abandoning the galaxy. Master Dolash was one of the few who was still active, and as the Empire and the Sith slowly spread their lies and hatred, the rest simply sat back and watched. She had resolved to give them this one last chance, here, with Dolash . . .
She woke and shook her head. Those were memories best not revisited now. They carried with them too much sorrow, too much pain. She had been hurt on that mission – not physically, but emotionally, mentally. It was then that she lost all faith in the Jedi.
Only Dolash’s final words lingered still in her mind. He knew, she thought. He knew then what I was planning, and he did not stop me. Perhaps he had a vision. Or perhaps . . .
Perhaps he simply recognized that I needed to discover things for myself. That I needed to make my own decision.
It was that thought that brought her here now. At the end of the mission, Dolash had turned to her and said, “Mynenial, when you find yourself, or if you find yourself lost and adrift, seek me out. I will always be there for you, to help you find your way.”
She must have fallen asleep again, for a soft beeping woke her. Her eyes opened, and she pulled herself to her feet and made her way to the cockpit. The trip was over; they had arrived at Ilum.
Her left arm was working again, marginally. She could lift it now, though gripping things was a bit of a problem. She hoped Dolash wasn’t looking for a fight.
As she reached the cockpit, the ship dropped out of hyperspace over what appeared to be nothing more than a ball of ice. Snow covered the planet, pole to pole. Skygge closed her eyes and reached out with the Force, tentatively, feeling for that familiar presence. “He’s here,” she said quietly. “Elana, take us down. Land there,” she added, pointing out coordinates for a landing site.
The apprentice obeyed, skillfully piloting the ship through the slight turbulence of re-entry. As the ship descended towards the landing site, Skygge could see a figure approaching. It stopped about eight meters from the ship as the vessel settled on its landing skids, apparently waiting for something, or someone.
The ramp lowered, and Skygge descended, right hand at the hilt of a temporary saber, and found herself face to face with the Master she was seeking.
“Welcome, Mynenial,” said Dolash, smiling slightly. “I’ve been expecting you.”
It was in these three days that she felt more closely connected with the Force than ever before, and she used the connection to contemplate on the true nature of the Force. She felt adrift in a vast sea of blue and red – light, but not light. It was liquid, or something like it, but it was glowing. It swirled and flowed around her. Blue and red, red and blue.
But they did not mix. Whenever red and blue drifted together, they repelled one another. On the few occasions the red and blue light collided, a black spot was created, a hole that swallowed both red and blue, leaving only emptiness behind. Skygge observed all this with wonder.
Perhaps she had been wrong. Perhaps her dead mentors, the ones who had written the books on which she had based her theories and her teachings – perhaps they were wrong as well. Perhaps there was not only one Force. Perhaps there were two. Or perhaps there was really one Force, but it was separated into two mutually exclusive sides; an objective standard of light and dark.
Perhaps.
But that was the big question, and it was not one that she was prepared to answer, for when she looked into herself, she was confronted with reality. When she looked into herself, she saw the deepest, darkest black imaginable. It was emptiness. The more she healed, though, the more that black seemed to be tinted with the tiniest bit of blue.
Perhaps.
Perhaps Dolash could answer the question. She could not.
Dolash.
Master Dolash, as she knew him before he had retreated to Ilum for quiet contemplation, before she had departed the Jedi Temple for the journey that had brought her to this point, where the great question was laid at her feet. As she healed, she remembered . . .
A mission. A real mission, with a real Master.
Myneniel could barely contain her excitement. It had been over a year since she had left the Temple, even as an errand runner, and even longer since she had participated in an actual mission. Her status as a Masterless Padawan made her something of an oddity; she didn’t fit in anywhere. Had her Master died, it would have been different. As a Padawan whose Master had abandoned her, though . . .
Myneniel had never forgiven Master Horn for disappearing and leaving her Masterless. She’d been stuck at the Temple for so long, learning with the Younglings, and she was tired of it. She wanted to do something, to have some input, to make an impact on the galaxy. But without a Master, she could not advance, and until she got a new Master, she was stuck here.
But now Master Dolash had taken notice of her and asked her to accompany him and his pseudo-apprentice, Marek Zolar. It was an honor to train with one as accomplished as the Jedi Knight, and an honor Mynenial did not take lightly. She quickly packed her kit – not much, but all she had. Two spare sets of robes, her mother’s rancor tooth (for luck, of course, though she didn’t tell Leia that), and her lightsaber. She stared at the lengthened hilt for some time – a dual-phase blade, emerald and amethyst gems providing the color, a diamond to focus the energy. A well-constructed weapon. She had built it under Master Horn’s tutelage, and now as she stared at it, she recalled her former Master. Mynenial still felt fondness for him, but now that slight emotion was drowned out by the roaring of anger.
He had abandoned her, just as the Jedi were slowly abandoning the galaxy. Master Dolash was one of the few who was still active, and as the Empire and the Sith slowly spread their lies and hatred, the rest simply sat back and watched. She had resolved to give them this one last chance, here, with Dolash . . .
She woke and shook her head. Those were memories best not revisited now. They carried with them too much sorrow, too much pain. She had been hurt on that mission – not physically, but emotionally, mentally. It was then that she lost all faith in the Jedi.
Only Dolash’s final words lingered still in her mind. He knew, she thought. He knew then what I was planning, and he did not stop me. Perhaps he had a vision. Or perhaps . . .
Perhaps he simply recognized that I needed to discover things for myself. That I needed to make my own decision.
It was that thought that brought her here now. At the end of the mission, Dolash had turned to her and said, “Mynenial, when you find yourself, or if you find yourself lost and adrift, seek me out. I will always be there for you, to help you find your way.”
***
She must have fallen asleep again, for a soft beeping woke her. Her eyes opened, and she pulled herself to her feet and made her way to the cockpit. The trip was over; they had arrived at Ilum.
Her left arm was working again, marginally. She could lift it now, though gripping things was a bit of a problem. She hoped Dolash wasn’t looking for a fight.
As she reached the cockpit, the ship dropped out of hyperspace over what appeared to be nothing more than a ball of ice. Snow covered the planet, pole to pole. Skygge closed her eyes and reached out with the Force, tentatively, feeling for that familiar presence. “He’s here,” she said quietly. “Elana, take us down. Land there,” she added, pointing out coordinates for a landing site.
The apprentice obeyed, skillfully piloting the ship through the slight turbulence of re-entry. As the ship descended towards the landing site, Skygge could see a figure approaching. It stopped about eight meters from the ship as the vessel settled on its landing skids, apparently waiting for something, or someone.
The ramp lowered, and Skygge descended, right hand at the hilt of a temporary saber, and found herself face to face with the Master she was seeking.
“Welcome, Mynenial,” said Dolash, smiling slightly. “I’ve been expecting you.”